I have a gym membership, and stay at home boredom. That's why I'm always on the computer. Maybe I should get off this thing and get my belly to the gym and use the day care. Oh wait- I can't. Noelle's got the flu. Well maybe next week. The gym won't take care of the post- pregnancy belly (not this one at least) but it will make me smaller and it's good to be healthy. That's not vain. And don't tell me I don't need a gym membership to exercise because frankly, I don't want to hear it. I love the gym. Even if I don't go often enough, I do use it. Sometimes it rains. Sometimes it's 40 degrees (or 104) and you can't drag your infant/ child out in the elements, even though they have to in third world countries. And if I didn't have this problem of having too much to eat I could go on and on.

Yeah. You live in Frisco, remember? The land of stick figure soccer moms (probably thanks to a combination of plastic surgery, loads of money, anorexia, competition with their teenage daughters, abundance of high-priced fitness centers with day care, and stay-at-home boredom). Wow, that wasn't judgmental stereotyping at all…

yep. Self preservation is a good motivation. And I think my kids need their mom so I'm going to do the best I can to lower my risk of death. That's why I've quit everything too. And why I try to be healthy. I just realized that nobody cares at all if I have a belly and if they do they're weird. Then I was wondering if I really care. And if I do then why? And after a while I decided that I really don't. Of course, I want to look good and present myself well but i no longer feel like I need surgery to do that.

I'll feel this way until the next person asks me when my baby's due, which is what started all of this in the first place.

Hmmmm….. fear as a more powerful motivating factor than money, vanity, and guilt. There's got to be some good sermonating and pastorizing in that idea somewhere…

O.K.- I've chickened out on the surgery. But not for money or vanity (or feeling bad about spending money or being vain, even though I did a little) but I just really can't get over the fact that I could die from an embolism or complications from anesthesia. So there we go. I'd rather have a belly than risk death, even if the risk is small. I kind of feel relieved. I know God loves mee too.

I believe BR is more of a medical necessity. According to Insurance. Because of back issues. Apparently it wouldn't be necessary for looking better, at least not in a man's world.